This is a huge step out of my comfort zone. To deliberately open myself up to unknown emotions. I feel very vulnerable and ’small’. But I do it. I step into the bubble, ready for whatever memory or heavy emotions it will bring. To my surprise, there is no movie, no memory, no emotion. As soon as I step into the bubble, the many tiny figures burst into applause. They cheer me on, welcome me, dance around me and celebrate. There is a huge party table in the middle of the bubble. They say ‘Finally you are here. Welcome! Congratulations. We have been waiting for you almost all your life!’ I am overwhelmed by this surprise, by this support, by this feeling of belonging. I am relieved that it is not heavy and scary. Again I feel tears, but at the same time, I am smiling. The tiny figures and the party in an air bubble: who could have imagined this?
But we are not done yet. The tiny figures crowd into a small hallway I had not yet noticed in the back of the bubble. They invite me along. They take me down a narrow corridor, which apparently connects all bubbles. They show me around and proudly explain it is a storage system, for all my memories, experiences and emotions. I am overwhelmed and impressed. All this is mine? They created it for me? They have all been working to facilitate me to reconnect to my memories and emotions?
My coach invites me to ask what is the best way to access all this. The figures don’t need any prompting. They take me by the arm and guide me to a room which turns out to be a miniature cinema. “Any time when you are ready, you just sit down here,” they explain, “and will show you what you need to see.” They point at the big screen. “We have had a LOT of time to think about this, so we know exactly what you need, when and in what order.” Reassuringly they say “leave it all to us, we will guide you through the process.” I feel so surprised, but also safe and supported. Everything seems so easy, so natural.
My coach asks if there is anything else they want to show me. The images I see shift to ‘outside’ my body. I see a construction project in full swing. The figures are connecting cables between my head and my heart. Later they will add cable carts to make communication and connection easier. Wow, so symbolic!