(Re)connecting to emotions – scary or adventurous?
I used to think that emotions were annoying, useless and non-productive. I was so focused on achieving results, that I became a master in ignoring and repressing my disappointments, hurts, sadness and other negative experiences. However, repressing emotions not only takes a lot of energy, but it also prevents you from feeling positive emotions. I used to have a lot of energy: I lived in ‘survival mode’ for most of my life. But after two car accidents, resulting in two whiplashes and two burnouts, I had to deal with limited energy. Something had to change to make my energy management more sustainable. I realized that to lead a balanced life, all emotions need to be acknowledged. Moreover, to make a fresh start, past emotions need to be released. After repressing a lifetime of negative emotions, I was pretty scared of what would happen when I opened that ‘Pandora’s box’. For a while, I half-heartedly tried to get closer to my emotions on my own, but I was so unfamiliar with the territory, that I easily slipped back in my old patterns: taking distance, being strong, turning negative experiences into learnings before really feeling and processing them internally. When, after a recent major relationship crisis there were even more emotions to deal with, I knew I needed help. Just like you hire an expert when you want to learn something new, I found a great coach specialized in exploring your feminine energy and emotions.